Slept about 4 hours last night. Rather this morning. I'm sure i look like a raccoon. But then doesn't matter. What really does matter is the fact that am in such a terribly deadly mood that i can't really think anything properly. See the last sentence was testimony to this fact. Afraid to close my eyes I might just fall forward. Is it wise going to the lycee early? Will that nutty character have done the needed? I have to have to be able to print. When or when will I be able to avail of my CAF money? Will I ever get it?

here with you baby...but you are still here in my dreams!
I miss my music :( wot do i do? but then there must b a reason! i'll pay more attention to my surroundings. Is it raining?Yes! damn. wot sort of weather is this? Anyways, wil go to the Lycee early! for what? I don't know. Just to avoid the rush I guess. Hope the mad bus stops for me! Going to the Lycee is a different experiance now!

Alison is sleepy. But what to do, feel like writing! Now getting up in the morning will be a problem. I learn something today. About China. I need to write properly about that. Also yesterday. Had a nice time but still....... never too comfortable with people. Stop trying to read minds and actions. ok!

When I was in Aix en Provence, we went to this museum that had a display of Picasso's life and work. All over there were quotations too. One that kind off stuck in my head was where he says that he writes the date on his paintings because it's important to know the circumstances in which he painted.

Break-fast at lunch time , lunch at break-fast! Room is in a mess. I don't want to turn on the web-cam coz they may see it. I do clean up. Over the week-ends.

Was thinking, maybe i should blog everyday. Just write something. I love writing, right? And after a coffee and a tea, I don't expect sleep to come to me too quickly. Not that I want to either. What do i do now? Write. A secret? A happy one? Do i begin a countdown? I feel pretty useless! Oh my damn back!

Got up at 4:45am today. And now having coffee. After a particularly heavy breakfast- coz i know it wil be cold and i don't want to feel hungry soon. Am going skiing. With people I don't know too well. But who have still invited me to go with them. Don't you think that is nice? Besides, I'm going skiing! Ok i'd better hurry up with the coffee, I don't want to be late. Besides, dressing will take a while I guess. Thinking of all the layers to put on!